Full Moon

Your smile, and all your showin
Lets Me know that you
Like what you see
And wanna get to know me too
This could very well, be the start of something special
Happy that I met you!
Brandy

If you haven't had the view of the Beautiful full Moon that's gracing the sky right now, you are missing an awe inspiring sight. I love the Moon. It is a love affair that has lasted. The Moon my man. This Moon being the true first of the year, has inspired me to talk about firsts. (By true first I am referring to the Vernal Equinox)

My first date ever was a comedy of errors. I was around 18 and I had spotted this adorable guy at a bar. We were always hanging in Bars, not drinking, and turning down advances from men in there 30's. I had seen him with the crew of super bougie Howard U. students I knew of. They were always looking over their shoulders and laughing in this self conscious yet showy way. Like they were having the time of their lives, but at your expense. I noticed his ass first. Although, I had no clue what I would do with that much badonkadonk!

I approached him, he was finishing up a game of darts and I asked him if I could play. I bet him a date if he lost. We went out the next night.

I drove up the steep hill that cuts through the plantational campus. My put-put of a car barely made it. I wasn't concerned, I had a car, bottom line. I wisely, parked around the back of the dorm. He walked out looking every bit of HBCU preppy and stole my heart. I was all teeth and gums. As we walked to my car, I apologized for it. I was self -conscious now. He just got in and looked around and smiled. I told him to wind down his window, because I had no A/C.

It was a warm September night. We went somewhere and did something. It was fun and we decided to walk around Dupont Circle for a while. We reached the south corner of the circle where one of the buildings cuts a sharp angle, making the shape of the structure a giant wedge of cheese. At the vertex,at street level was a Benetton store location. They had a specially angled display to catch the eye of people stuck in the infamous roundabout. Well I was intrigued by something which caused me to get a closer look. I leaned forward to see whatever it was. SMACK! There was a pane of glass, clean and clear. I had hit my head on the angled glass! My adorable date, now fell into himself with laughter. I was still stunned. It hurt.

I have recently met another adorable teddy bear of a man and we have had our first and second dates. We are at a stage in our courtship where we text 0r speak daily. I want him more and more everyday. This is new for me. I have been out of practice, but he is open and easy to communicate with.

We discovered we liked each other, one sunny day during a random text conversation. He was following up on our previous conversations about podcasting ( His podcast is an ATL fave). He mentioned something about me being gracious with my time. I let him know that he was able to access me as much as he liked. We have been happy flirting ever since. I often wonder if I approached him the night we met, would we still be this jovial. Did I achieve a little more success,by being patient. It was nearly a month after we initially met, that we confessed our interests.

I think a lot of times, I have jumped the gun, and put my agenda on the table in the honor of transparency. I now think it just makes my intentions clear for the other party to trifle with. It sounds so jaded to me. But I think I will let it play out from now on. I will exchange information and pursue a relationship based on mutual interests. I am not so sure. I guess I am asking, If you know you want it, must you always front?
AINT THAT THE TRUTH!